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it’s funny to think about how many people would never remember your birthday without facebook.
yesterday was a good day, but it didn’t really feel like my birthday. a lot of online messages and quick posts that were very nice. and i don’t mean to sound like i need attention, but sometimes you just want to feel like people actually care. that they don’t just feel obligated to say something. the few heartfelt posts meant the most, and of course they remind me who actually thinks about me on a somewhat regular basis.
i can’t really explain why i felt sad all day yesterday. i shouldn’t have. i am very lucky and blessed to have the friends and family that i do. but it was just a reminder that i’m not around the people that matter most. i wish i had spent my birthday with the ones who do remember it. my family, alexa. i guess i shut myself off from people on my own. but it shouldn’t have felt so sad.
my feelings are all mixed up these days. i’m worried that i’m one of those people that is just going to be forgotten by the world when i’m gone. in reality, who would even remember me a few years from now if i were to disappear tomorrow? and does that even really matter? i’m getting way too philosophical for my own good. but these are things i think about most days.
i know the ones who matter most. and i guess even having one person who would remember is all anyone could ask for.
ask me anything, just make it good